Deciphering what is Natural
by phil on Saturday Oct 4, 2003 12:15 PM
Who am I? Who is the self they're walking about when they urge you to "Be yourself"?
It can't be who I actively try to be, i.e. my self-forcing, self-willing attempts at becoming, for that is my attempt at projecting a me that doesn't exist yet onto myself.
On the other hand, it can't be me without conscious thought, me nihilistic, for that would be denying my natural impulse to actively determine my life.
Finding the right generative inputs has been the constant motif of my recent life... right now I kind of like the word semi-automatic, which is another word for balance. Finding that right balance between total surrender and over-analysis.